Driving down the highway of life..sometimes there are curves, sometimes its a straightaway. Most times I am thinking...where's the exit?!?

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Lacrosse

Today they rocked it at practice! I am so excited! We have been practicing for just over a week and I can't believe how quickly some of the girls have improved. Our season starts in just over a few weeks and I really believe that we have a change to do well this season. I am already starting to formulate the team in my mind. Cassie, my assistant, is also pretty impressed. They listen, they do what is asked, it is amazing! :)

Today I saw the fire. Some of the girls came to make the team. I am hoping that the girls that played last year will find the fire within them to want to make the team! Some of them are taking it for granted. I want to see the fire in all of them!

I guess time will tell!

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Why is it so cold?

This picture depicts how I have been feeling during lacrosse practice the past few days! It is soooo cold, windy, and rainy! Yuck! What the heck? This is Oregon people...It is almost March and this morning when I left for work it was SNOWING! Yes, snowing! Okay, I realize that if you are from a place where it snows all the time, you are thinking "what a wimp, get over it!"

So, I get home from lacrosse practice, freezing my hiney off, unable to get warm. I was standing in front of the fireplace, under warm blankets, in my pj's, but NO WARMTH WAS GETTING IN ME! Argh! So, now three hours later I am finally warming up!

Anyway, the days are flying by. I can't believe that it is (almost) March already. It just seems like the years go faster and faster! Soon we are meeting for Javad's transition meeting, then graduation, Adam going off to school and Simon going to high school! Hard to believe...

Guess for now, I'll be happy that it is still cold!

Monday, February 26, 2007

Mondays

So, today is the beginning of another week. Last night the Oscars were on TV and I went to bed with a migrane and woke up this morning with the aura of a headache still upon me. It seemed, in some ways, the fitting beginning for the week. Since last week, I have been in a, sort of, weird place. I wrote the letter to my mom and since then, haven't really felt tired when I wake up. Now for those of you who know me personally rather that cyber-ly, you know that I am pretty much tired every morning. There was a clear sense of relief and closure through that letter, so much so that I have actually been sleeping better. A true sense of completing something from my past.

It has been really cold here that they have been talking that there may be snow tomorrow. It's hard to believe, but even in, almost, March, it can snow. I would admit that a day off would be awesome. Do I think it'll happen, absolutely not, but a girl can wish! :)

I am sorry that I am not feeling real creative or talkative tonight! I will try to do better tomorrow! Peace!

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Interviews

This week for my class I am supposed to interview at least two people. I had the opportunity to interview my step-mom, Susanne. The purpose was to find out how I am in that community, my family. It was really valuable. I learned about my strengths, weaknesses, and things that people can (and can't) count on! Getting insight into your life is fascinating. I mean, I guess I can live with the fact that I am not expected to be on time! (I try, but oh well!) I still need to interview at least one more person before Thursday. I think one of my friends will be next.

Tonight I am not writing much. Mostly, my head feels like it is going to explode from (what I think) is a Migrane coming on. I think I'll take some medicine and go to bed. Say a quick prayer that the torrential rain that was happening today won't happen tomorrow so I will be warmer watching the lacrosse tourney tomorrow! I am excited to go watch and maybe try out my new stick! :)

Friday, February 23, 2007

Am I alone?

Okay...either I am completely writing into a vacuous space or maybe someone is occasionally stopping by, crawling into the inner workings of my mind, then leaving. If it is true that there are people flying through my little space on the web, please leave me an occasional note or comment letting me know what you think, how you felt, or just that you were there. Thanks!

A better after!

So, today I feel much better. Yesterday, I was agitated, irritated, and generally feeling like I had swallowed a big ball of angry. The worst thing, is that I didn't know why.


As the day went on, I realized that all the emotional energy that has gone into completing my relationship with my mother had finally come to a head. My friend, Tracy, reminded me that it had been exactly a year, yesterday, that I went to the first Introduction night for Landmark. One year ago yesterday, I made a commitment to working out my relationship with my mother so I could be a better mother for Stesha. One year later, I have competed that journey with my mother. Now I am working on completing that with Stesha as well.


Life throws you curveballs. I am learning that those curveballs don't mean anything, they just are. It is February and Adam goes off to college in August. Stesha is staying, but she is finishing here. Simon is finishing the 8th grade and we are meeting to prepare Javad for kindergarten. Life is in an ebb and flow. I want to have the better after. I am creating that possibility.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Mothers

Today is the third anniversary of my mother's death.

It seems odd that it has been three whole years. In some ways it seems like it was only yesterday.

I don't want to sugar coat things. My relationship with my mother was a rocky one. She was a free spirit, throwback from the 60's. She believed in art, freedom, beauty, but mostly freedom. My mother was a woman who loved her children, but didn't really know what to do with them. She wanted to have a life and sometimes we got in the way.

My mom was 20 when I was born. She was incredibly beautiful, you know, the kind of woman that makes you turn and look. As I grew up, she was always the first to point out another beautiful woman. She would tell people she noticed them, noticed their clothing, hair, or whatever. It was embarrassing, but now I realize that it was her way of showing us to appreaciate those around us. In many ways we grew up together. She remarried when I was 5, had another child when I was 6. She worked when it wasn't fashionable and taught me in this way how important it is to feel like what you do is worthy. My mom was never an "at-home" mom. Now, I think I relate. I have never been one either. I love to work and constantly try to balance motherhood and my job.

As I got older, things became rockier. She began to use drugs when I was in the 7th grade and continued to both use and drink heavily. Our roles were beginning to reverse. I was taking care of my brother, scraping together food to feed us, stealing my mother's boyfriends drugs to sell to get things to eat. I am not proud of that now, but hen, it was all about survival. When the adult in your life isn't an adult, something had to take over.

After 8th grade, I told my dad that if he wouldn't let me move in, I was running away. Sometimes there is clarity and this was one of those times. He and his new wife, Susanne, took me in. They had only been married a year so it was quite the task.Susanne, the woman I now call my mom, was my saving angel. She and my father saved my life. The four years of high school, I worked to be another person. I was in choir, involved in activities, and didn't talk to my mom. Sometimes she tried, but mostly I didn't care.

This pattern continued for many years. Honestly, I didn't really give her much chance. She had made her mistakes and I was not going to let her apologize. I didn't believe her. I was bitter, angry, and frustrated. She had never been what I wanted or needed and, in many ways, I never let her forget it.

I don't want you to think that this is all about bitching about my mother because it's not. What this is about is remembering her and all the beautiful things she brought me, things I never thanked her for. So here it goes:

Mama,

Thank you for encouraging me to see the beauty in people.

Thank you for teaching me how to compliment people.

Thank you for showing me how to make a window into a work of art.

Thank you for teaching me that brown paper wrapping or the comics can be the greatest wrapping paper!

Thank you for introducing me to the "puppet" christmas shows and watching with me!

Thank you for teaching me to value my job and the person I can be there.

Thank you for teaching me to batik, even if I can't remember.

Thank you for teaching me to be an independent thinker.

Thank you for encouraging me to go toward any goal I wanted.

Thank you for telling me that you were proud of me.

Thank you for telling me that I was a good mother.

Thank you....

I wish that I was able to go back three years and two weeks. If I could I would bring Javad to you so you could hold him, I would bring Stesha by to see you and I would tell you I loved you with all my heart, not withholding that little piece that I always did.

You did what you could and, even though it wasn't always the best, it was what it was.

I love you and I miss you.

Shannon

Monday, February 19, 2007

Lacrosse


Tomorrow starts another transition in my schedule, the beginning of lacrosse. There are 28 girls playing this year, up from 17 last year. it will be a crazy, exciting, wild, and stressful time. In the course of the lacrosse season, I will also be working on my community project, Javad's Place Buddy Program. Each of these things will be time consuming, but they will also be satisfying.

Lacrosse brings out a new area for me. I feel like I am doing something that is bringing something new to this area. Lacrosse is a growing sport and is HUGE on the Westside, but the Eastside is still growing. I feel that I am helping it grow on this side which is very exciting!

Getting the Buddy Program off the ground is another exciting event. My first vision of this program is expanding in my mind. I am thinking in more global terms and not being narrowed by what I think is not possible, but rather looking at this as possible. I have decided that I would like Javad's Place to host events every month for participants of the Buddy Program. These events would give an opportunity for families to meet together and meet each other. I am realizing that I am only limited by what I think is possible and as I am learning, anything is possible.

Keep an open mind, my friends...I may be asking you for information on this one! :)

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Is Life just a Game?


I love playing sports. I must admit that I am not quite as fast or skilled as I was when I was a few years younger, but that doesn't stop me from wanting to play. I want to play and not get hurt though and that seems to be missing from some people. I just want to have a fun time...

Soccer used to be something that David and I did together. It's how we met. Unfortunately, he hurt his shoulder last summer during outdoor soccer and it really hasn't recovered fully. It is true, he hasn't seen a doctor, but that's another story!

Tuesday we start Lacrosse practice. I am really excited for this upcoming season! Last season there were 17 girls and this year there are 28. Two girls did drop out from last year, so that would mean that there are 13 new girls. Whew! I have an assitant, Cassie, which will be fun. She is really excited to be teaching the girls and get back into the lacrosse scene! Her energy will be great! Now my task is to make out a practice schedule, finish writing the test (yes, they need to take a test over the rules), and do a bunch of school work! Have a great night!


Tomorrow is President's Day which means NO SCHOOL! Yahoo!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

What exactly does transformation look like?


Transformation is one of those things that you hear about within the context of many things.

I believe that I am in the process of transformation. I am transforming right before my own eyes. Taking Landmark classes has been instrumental to this transofrmation. I look at the person that I was a year ago compared to who I am today. I believe that the person I am now is dramatically different. Maybe people can't really see it on the outside, but I feel it on the inside. I am being a person anew.

I want to continue to grow into this new person. I want to make a contribution to the world. I want the possibility of power to pour out from me and into others.

I am beginning my community project for my Self Expression and Leadership Program. I am so excited. I am creating a manual for The Buddy Program, a program being implemented through Javad's Place. I want to give an opportunity for all children to have friendships and social interactions similar to those of their peers. Once the manual is complete, I am going to get approval for The Buddy Program to be implemented in one elementary school. Once I get it off the ground, I am looking for more schools for implementation. I am excited for the possibilities!

The timeline for my project is to be completed by May 31. It seems like a big project to be fulfilled in a short time, but I am creating the possibility of completion. I am also creting the possibility of acceptance by those that I present this project to and finally, I create the possibility of power for those involved.

Transformation isn't just something that happens, it is something that we are.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

I think my head is going to explode



These last dew days I feel like my head is going to explode. Every day when I check my email, there are a slew of emails regarding lacrosse and the lack of field space. At this time, my team is practicing only three days a week and them by March 12 there are weeks that we only practice once a week. It is ridiculous! I am trying to let it go, but it is so irritating! This team is made up of three different high schools and not one of them can claim the girls. It's crazy!I am wondering if we can do fitness training in between official practices. I am trying to brainstorm, but mostly today I feel like my head is going to explode!

Today, I feel that things are coming to a head. (Pardon the pun!) This is the time for getting financial aid forms done and other fun stuff at my house! I have been putting off doing the FAFSA, I think partly because I am not sure that we are going to get any assistance. Essays, homework, other things happening...yep, that's a sure background for a fight! Argh! I hate that!

I will be happy when it is all done. We can move forward and maybe, just maybe, I will do it with my head intact!

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Is there such thing as a food baby?


So, what happens when you start out thin(ner) and end up not? There must be some reason. There are a few choices:

1) You are eating yourself into a "large and in charge" body? (That can't be it!!)

2) Your clothes weigh 10 pounds and your shoes weigh 5 pounds, thus the additional 15 pound weight gain. (Hmmm. I am wearing Danskos and they are pretty heavy!)

3) That saying "100 pounds soaking wet" is wrong. You are sure that being soaking wet adds at least an additional 50 pounds, thus explaining your weight gain! (Hmmm. Has possibilities!)

4) You are really pregnant with a food baby! (That's it...I just have to wait until the birth!)

So, when having a food baby, does that mean you can eat anything you want during gestation? I mean, after all, you are eating for two. Another question is how long is food baby gestation?

All these questions are good one. Maybe I need to do some investigation.

Where do I look? "foodbaby.com"?

Let me know what you think?

Monday, February 12, 2007

Sleeping Beauty




I would like to say that I completed this post on the date this is posted, but alas...I fell asleep!

So sad...I'm pretty sure that it was inspiring too!

Sunday, February 11, 2007

All the President's Men


What is it about politics that both intrigues and annoys us? We are in the Presidential Election cycle. Candidates are coming out of the woodwork. Barack Obama, Hillary Clinton, John Edwards to name a few. Everyone has a plan how to do things better. Now, since this is my blog, I can say that I personally think that anywhere would be up from here. We are at war with Iraq, Afganistan, and annoying practically everyone else. Our cowboy politics don't really fly with the rest of the world. We have thousands of uninsured and underinsured Americans, thousands working and still under the poverty line. Just this past week, I found out that the free breaskfast program, one that often gives students at our school a guatanteed one meal a day, will most likely be taken away next year. There is no federal funding. Okay, no don't get me wrong, I realize that there are a lot of things to fund, but shouldn't our children be one of the most important. Our governement seems to forget that these children are the ones that will be making all the decisions when we are all old. As one who daily interacts with some of these future law makers, I am a bit frightened! Many of the youth of today are lost. They come from dysfunctional families that don't even put the "fun" in dysfunctional. There is rampant drug use among their parents, they are poor, underfed, and unable to go to the doctor, if needed. We, as a society, need to make a stand. Fight for what we want. Do we really want to be losing thousands of young men and women in Iraq, fighting for their freedom, when many of our own are fighting for their lives on American soil in their day to day lives.

Stesha, my daughter, is writing a paper on "All the President's Men." We read the book and are watching the movie (which is very accurate to the book, I might add!). Although I was not old enough to really have clarity about Watergate, I have been stopping the movie to explain things to Stesha regarding various events. Although I have seen it before, I am reminded how monumental the Watergate scandel really was. The first real time when people doubted the honesty of their government. How interesting since in today's society, people assume that the government is dishonest. So, is that an evolution of our society? If it is, is it a good one or not?

So, where do we go from here? Looking towards the future, remembering the past. We have much to repair as a society, as a country, as a world. We should begin now....not wait until the next president takes office. We need to be a nation of "All the people's men."

Let the healing begin!

Landmark Education


Today I started my new class, the Self Expression and Leadership Program through Landmark Education. This is the final class in the Curriculum for Living and I am really excited about the possibilities that are available in this class. One of the requirements of this program is to do a community project. I am so excited! I am hoping to really get my vision of Javad's Place off the ground. The closer I get to actually making this happen, the more excited I am.


Tonight I am feeling powerful. I am creating the possibility of power! Awesome!

Friday, February 9, 2007

Dance the Night Away


Remember school dances in high school? Sweaty bodies grinding in the dark. Ahhh, can you hear "Memories" playing in the background?

Tonight we had a dance at our school. Our dances are small (maybe 55 kids attended out of the 190 who attend our school) but are a lot of fun for the kids that do come! So, close your eyes and imagine the following...

Fifty sweaty bodies, 80's music (with a few thrasher rocks songs peppered in), bumping and grinding, break dancing (which was fabulous...who knew?).

Sometimes when we have these events, I am reminded at what a melting pot our school is. We have students that, if they didn't go to our school together, would never even look at each other. Now I realize that you may be thinking, Duh? Isn't that true for every school? Well, our school is small so it forces kids who would never talk to each other at a larger school, to interact with each other. It is really neat.

On another note, remember when I was talking about how (suddenly) my students are turning in monumental amounts of work? Well, that hasn't changed. Yes, the work churning is still there! Who knew? I may have opened that Pandora's Box on this one, but I am happy to say, they are happy. Since they are happy, I, too, am happy!

On to the weekend...

Thursday, February 8, 2007

More Contemplation and the Future


So today I met with my friend after work and ended up having a great talk about how sometimes where you are is far from where you thought you might be.

Think about when you were young (which for some may be a few years ago and if that is you, you might as well skip down to the end since none of this will make sense unless you want a glimpse into your future!). Okay, again, think when you were young and had a vision for where you ould be in 30 years. Most of us had visions of family, big house with the two (or three) car garage, and a certain lifestyle.

So, what happens when your life turns out drastically different than you expected? How do you acknowledge all the good things you have had in your life, honor the choices that you have made, honor the place that you are.

Just because you are not where you thought you would be doesn't mean that you aren't amazing, that your life isn't incredible.

The future is an open book and no matter what, you need to treat it as so. Write your book, live your future. Be it, see it, live it!

Wednesday, February 7, 2007

Who are we really?

Okay...I admit it. I love reality TV. Tonight I was watching "Beauty and the Geek" which I think is an interesting social experiment. Put 8 "beautiful" women and 8 "geeks" in a house together, pair them up and put them to a variety of tests. The "beauties" find out things about themselves that show that they are smarter than they think. The "geeks" fins that they can be socially acceptable and have more to offer than just their brains. Through the course of this social experiment, there are changes, growth of all parties.

I think about how this applies to all of us, how we have visions of ourselves and how those visions grow and change as we get more information, as we see things from the outside.

I look at myself and where I was years ago. Today I was talking about how things were 5 years and 20 pounds ago. Why is it that women judge time by pounds? Really they have nothing to do with eachother. do men judge themselves by how much hair they had? 5 years and more hair ago? Why are these things important?

Why do we judge? Why do we care? Shoudn't the quality of person be the most important?

I think about my students. Yesterday afternoon I had a meeting with my National Honor Society students. I know that I mentioned this yesterday, but hat I didn't talk about is how that meeting made me feel. I felt a connection to the depth of their honor. A place that made them feel special. It was, at times, overwhelming. They are already talking about activities that honor others, tell them that someone is thinking of them. Their is joy in honoring others and my students, some of the poorest, most impacted by violence, apathy, drugs, and abandonment think about how others can be honored. Honored for being at school, honored for their birthday, just a note to say, "We have noticed you and we care."

That is what I think we should be about. Not how many pounds heavier we are, how much hair we have lost, what we wear or how much money we have, but the quality of person that we are.

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.
~Helen Keller (1880 - 1968)

I guess that about says it all!

Tuesday, February 6, 2007

Ahh! The things I have learned!


So, I have discovered how to put a picture on my blog. I realize that you might think that I am a geek, but really, I am kinda computer illiterate. I was really excited that I put a picture on last nights blog without the help of Stesha. It was late...I didn't want to wake her.

So, how does this impact you, the reader? Well, you might have to view some picture or photo on every blog until the novelty wears off! :)

So, what is today's rant about? Hmmm...I guess I will have to think.

Okay, here goes.

Today was another banner day at school. After school (see, nothing really exciting happened at school, just a small nap during my prep, coffee that took forever at lunch, more homework turned in....who knew?) I had my first National Honor Society meeting. Okay, I guess that I am jumping ahead.

Last year I approached my principal with the idea of having a chapter of National Honor Society chapter at my school. I really felt that it was important to honor students who are working at striving forward academically. In the past, many of the students at our school have been treated as second class citizens. I have been at my job for seven years and feel committed (when I don't feel I should be committed) that my students be given opportunities to do more with their lives that be satisfied with the mediocre.

So anyway, I felt that having a NHS chapter helps lend that to our school. So, today we had our first meeting.

It was great! At this time we only have six members (all girls) and they will help formulate what the chapter will look like for all eternity (a bit dramatic, I know!). So, we met, we planned, and we'll meet again next week!

I am not really sure where I was going with this.... On to another topic....

Let's see....How about WHAT I HAVE LEARNED...

1. I have learned that eating too much chocolate (although yummy) will make your stomach upset.
2. I have learned that good friends are invaluable!
3. I have learned that reading a good book is awesome and much needed sanity!
4. I have learned that writing this blog has been an awesome outlet!
5. I have learned that although I know things, I really don't know enough!

What have you learned? Leave me a note...let me know you've some by, or just do a read-by...come in, read, and leave...your choice!

Monday, February 5, 2007

What have I created?



I think I have created a monster.

For those of you who may not know, I teach high school math. Okay, I realize that I may have mentioned that once or twice already, but maybe you're new, maybe you don't pay attention, maybe you have been sleeping while reading my blog. I realize that for youthis may not be the most important thing for you to read every day, but clearly, it is the highlight of my day...

Okay, I digress..

Anyway, that's right, I was talking about the monster I have created.

So, we just finished a quarter a week or so ago and, as I was giving out about a thousand (slight exaggeration) "N's" (which is our district's cheezy way of inflating grades by not giving F's. "N" is nicer, you know, No pass!) So back to the monster...as I was giving my thousand N's and, of course, feeling like I am the best math teacher ever! (sarcasm dripping!)I was contemplating how, pray tell, I was going to save face and get these little urchins passing my class without just giving them passing grades(clearly their solution!).

So, I came up with this great plan. First, I would devise a math log which would allow me to give them participation points, give them daily assignments, give them a weekly skill packet, and a warm-up that we correct each day. (This is for two of my classes only.) So I started the new project last week, but of course I was out with the big yank for part of the week and I came back this week to find...A STACK OF WORK ON MY DESK TO BE GRADED! Holy Cow Batman! Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus! Maybe this is going to work!

Okay, so I will have a stack of work to grade every night, but I may (not only)possibly have a bunch of kids passing this quarter, but also (and even more importantly) have kids that actually are understanding math (shocking, I know!)

I realize that it's only the second week, so maybe I shouldn't get too excited, but don't burst my bubble. I am thinking that I am back in the running for TEACHER OF THE YEAR!

Let the grading begin!

Sunday, February 4, 2007

Football frenzy

Well, it loooked good from the beginning. The Bears returned the fist kick off for a touchtown. It looked like they were in for a good start. The first half both teams were on fire. There was scoring abounding. It looked like it was going to be a great game. Sadly, the second half the Bears came out flat, the Colts came out to win. Peyton Manning had a point to make. He is not just the son of Archie, brother of Eli, he is a quarterback that has talent to show. He is all that it is said that he is worth. The Bears quarterback, Grossman? Well, he's young. He has a future ahead of him. Let's face it. Making it to the Superbowl as a rookie is nothing to be ashamed of, but he was not ready to be at the Big Show. Peyton Manning has been preparing for the big show for some time. Waiting at the gates, running in to show his stuff.

My hat goes off to the Colts. Baby Donovan was cheering from heaven and his mother, Melissa, got to cheer at the game. All things are for a purpose. Maybe this time it was meant to be. Angels cheered, families healed, and in some small way, the universe has been aligned.

Saturday, February 3, 2007

Super Sunday


Tomorrow is, for many, almost a religious holiday. A day when people gather in front of the almighty television screen to worship one of two teams that have battled their way to the top of football fame. Tomorrow the battle wages between the Indiana Colts and the Chicago Bears. Now, I have been a Bears fan since my past life when I had my practice marriage. We would watch football faithfully with Walter Peyton and Mike Ditka. Those were the days of "The Fridge." Ahhh, good old days. The Colts have never really been my team. I have only followed them because there is a family from Indiana who recently lost their son, Baby Donovan, to a rare childhood leukemia and are avid Colts fans. It was a bit of a tradition for them to watch the games together, and, I believe, that his parents may be going to the Big Game in his honor. For them, I will cheer for the Colts (a bit!)

Tomorrow brings back memories. When Stesha's dad and I were together, in our younger days, we watched football cheered the Bears regularly. Since that life, so long ago expired, there were many years that I didn't even watch professional sports. This game is kind of a coming out party. I really like watching sports. I know something about them. My husband, David, is not so much a sports guy, unless the sport is soccer and he is all knowledgeable in that area.

As I talk about the time from my past life, I am thinking about Steve (Stesha's dad) and his parents. They live in Florida and his parent's home was hit by the tornado a fe days ago. They are okay, but their house has definitely taken a hit. It will be a time of rebuilding for them. So, tomorrow, my prayer is that they will sit in front of the TV and cheer on their team (I am thinking the Bears, but things may have changed) and have a slice of normalcy, if only for a day!

For us, what does tomorrow bring? We will have some friends over tomorrow and worship the shrine of the TV playing the football game. What can I say? It should be fun...nothing like a few friends, a pigskin, and some cheering for whoever you feel is the team for you.

Go Colts! (That's for you Donovan!) Go Bears!

PS Hey did you notice that I didn't even mention my tooth?

Friday, February 2, 2007

Another day in the life of a tooth

Sorry if this topic is boring you, but really there is not much else going on in my life. Right now it is all about pain medication, sleeping, and atching what ever is on TV. Ahhh...what a life.

This morning at 5am, Javad decided to have a little episode. Well, I have no proven that even under the influence of pain medication, I am able to clear the fog in my brain to take care of Javad's respiratory needs. That is a good thing to know!

At about noon, I had reached my wall. I was going to watch "Nanny McPhee" on TV, but decided that going to sleep was a much better thought. So 6 hours later, I was awake. What a life. I thought I would watch Numb3rs, then go back to bed.

Yesterday, Adam (our oldest son) presented his senior project, a website that he had created for the upcoming non-profit that I am starting, Javad's Place. He was very nervous about this presentation as it has been in the works all semester. We were pleased that he received the highest marks (excells) possible on his project. I had no doubts, it has been a labor of love and hard work for him. For me, he has given a jumpstart to a dream that I have had to begin this non-profit!

Well, nothing more on the tooth front. Hopefully the topic will move to more exciting things very soon! I am a little tired of teeth! I bet you are too! :)

Thursday, February 1, 2007

The Big Yank

Well, today was the big day. Some might think the big day means something special...wedding, party, but no, today was the Big Yank! This morning at 8:15 my dad came to pick me up to go to the oral surgeon, Dr. Nichols. He was great and must be used to someon becoming totally unconscious in the middle of a conversation. We were talking about Emanuel one minute (he does work there) and then I was being woken up the next. Okay, nice talking to you!

Now, as I am writing, you must take into consideration that I am writing to you under the influence of pain medication and pain. So, if I ramble, there you have it.

Today has been a weird day. I got up, put dishes in the dishwasher as if it was going to be a regular normal day. Then got on comfy clothes and off to the dentist. Now, in case I have not laid this out for you in the past, I am TERRIFIED of the dentist. So, this last week has been some kind of torture...

My dad escorted me home, fed me soup, and let me sleep (a lot) and then brought me home so I could be cared for by my children and my aesome friend, Juli. She came up to sit with me (and brought me a Blizzard, yum!) So here I am watching "Grey's Anatomy" (one of my favs). sitting with Juli and Charlie (thos dog with may too much gas), wishing that my pain meds would WORK!!

We'll see tomorrow! I will try to be more clever...

Just call me toothless!